this one ex of mine refused to "let" me come visit her unannounced and it always infuriated me... the reason being that if i were to just show up at her place she might not "be ready" (read: painted & coiffed) to receive visitors..
and yes, to be fair i was only 17 a genetic-woman *very* inexperienced, and i had no *idea* of what she was going through to get acceptance for herself in the local community, but at the same time i felt really hurt... i felt like she was telling me i was no better than any jerk off the street who would decide who she was by how thick the paint was on her face and how much she stuffed her bra and by extension i felt like she was telling me that *i* wasn't woman-enough because i refused to do the same (make-up, etc.)...
it was her soul, not the make-up on her face, that made her a woman in my eyes.. but i felt like my opinion didn't matter to her... i'd like to say that i was just hurt and over-reacting, but i can't read her thoughts and i don't know what she thought of it all...
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Date: 2007-12-07 12:40 am (UTC)and yes, to be fair i was only 17 a genetic-woman *very* inexperienced, and i had no *idea* of what she was going through to get acceptance for herself in the local community, but at the same time i felt really hurt... i felt like she was telling me i was no better than any jerk off the street who would decide who she was by how thick the paint was on her face and how much she stuffed her bra and by extension i felt like she was telling me that *i* wasn't woman-enough because i refused to do the same (make-up, etc.)...
it was her soul, not the make-up on her face, that made her a woman in my eyes.. but i felt like my opinion didn't matter to her... i'd like to say that i was just hurt and over-reacting, but i can't read her thoughts and i don't know what she thought of it all...