Wow, I missed the fire fight, being on the verge of A.S. for most of the day.
The amount of deletions says a lot. Especially the triggery topic it covers.
I occasioally notice that you are as serious as a heart attack across certain core issues. Upon reflection of what little I've gleaned from your life experiences from your LJ, if you weren't as worked up as you were we'd have to check you for schizophrenic fugue.
Are you at a point in your life were occasionally you don't take yourself so seriously? Is that even a possibility for some one who has been thru what you've been thru.
To be blunt, I don't think you should edit yourself when dealing with something like this. Whether you share it with others is main question you have to ask yourself.
But it is better to kick it around, right or wrong, than to leave it in the back of the fridge to get all green and furry.
The one issue you and all of the respondants gyre'd on, that all men are potential rapists...I get this vibe (being big and bear like and physically intimidating just walking down the street) from women a lot, especially since one of my early spiritual teachers taught me to look people in the eyes and learn their life thru their faces...many folks cannot handle that close an interaction in passing.
The Xara event I went to back in April completely dissolved this interaction...men and women looked at each other, in the face, made eye contact, and no one exchanged bad vibes and phobias.
Then again, we were simulating a future agrarian utopia where all of the social stumbling blocks we deal with today were long forgotten...and it worked for three days.
Coming back to this distopia was a bit hard.
Don't flog yourself to hard over this. Live and learn. Mistakes are good for that, as long as they are not fatal, wound your body or psyche perm, etc.
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Date: 2005-07-07 12:52 am (UTC)The amount of deletions says a lot. Especially the triggery topic it covers.
I occasioally notice that you are as serious as a heart attack across certain core issues. Upon reflection of what little I've gleaned from your life experiences from your LJ, if you weren't as worked up as you were we'd have to check you for schizophrenic fugue.
Are you at a point in your life were occasionally you don't take yourself so seriously? Is that even a possibility for some one who has been thru what you've been thru.
To be blunt, I don't think you should edit yourself when dealing with something like this. Whether you share it with others is main question you have to ask yourself.
But it is better to kick it around, right or wrong, than to leave it in the back of the fridge to get all green and furry.
The one issue you and all of the respondants gyre'd on, that all men are potential rapists...I get this vibe (being big and bear like and physically intimidating just walking down the street) from women a lot, especially since one of my early spiritual teachers taught me to look people in the eyes and learn their life thru their faces...many folks cannot handle that close an interaction in passing.
The Xara event I went to back in April completely dissolved this interaction...men and women looked at each other, in the face, made eye contact, and no one exchanged bad vibes and phobias.
Then again, we were simulating a future agrarian utopia where all of the social stumbling blocks we deal with today were long forgotten...and it worked for three days.
Coming back to this distopia was a bit hard.
Don't flog yourself to hard over this. Live and learn. Mistakes are good for that, as long as they are not fatal, wound your body or psyche perm, etc.