My parents are just reaching the age of 65. This means they can get social security, and medical aide. Yet still it is very expensive.
*treading carefully* The Pope does also call for a "distribution of wealth" in this world. As far as a more fair and balanced use of money. This could lighten the load for people with medical expenses etc. Why is it so expensive? I don't really think it should be.
As well, *deep breath* my Grandmother died of alzheimers. We know it leads to one thing. A vegetative state. The person, goes back literally to the fetal position. It could have saved alot of money, and depression to euthanise her. There is no cure!!!
Yet honestly? This may seem very heartless of me, but it isn't. I needed that. I needed to be there for her during this. Caring for someone is a huge lesson in compassion. I used to hate her. She was brutal to my father, to me at times.
Alot of healing took place during her illness. Alot of soul searching. Terror for me, watching her go through this, it is hereditery?
My parents and I used this time to rebuild our relationship, we all used this time to forgive her. Before this I hadn't really talked with them for ten years.
She was mean and angry in her illness. She didn't know me, I was the girl in the picture on the wall. Yet I learned how to care for her anyways, how to love her. Patience, compassion.
My daughter was given time with her. Before this she really had no patience for children. She changed. Loved my child. They had some wonderfull times.
We were able to love her completely and care for her. Something we would not have done, if it weren't for that extra time. When she died, I wept. I may not have done that hadn't I been given this time.
I truly believe we go through life and experience things for a reason. She went through her illness for a reason of her own. To cut off her life would have been humane? Or would it realy have been? To die, with all of us feeling badly for the way she treated us. Or to have the time to reconsider.
I don't want to die. In my Buddhist studies, I have trouble with this. I cannot leave now. My child needs me. I feel panic at the thought of dying. Hopeing and praying, I can stay until she is on her feet and old enough to care for herself. Otherwise, I would be fine.
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Date: 2004-03-21 10:50 am (UTC)My parents are just reaching the age of 65. This means they can get social security, and medical aide. Yet still it is very expensive.
*treading carefully* The Pope does also call for a "distribution of wealth" in this world. As far as a more fair and balanced use of money. This could lighten the load for people with medical expenses etc. Why is it so expensive? I don't really think it should be.
As well, *deep breath* my Grandmother died of alzheimers. We know it leads to one thing. A vegetative state. The person, goes back literally to the fetal position. It could have saved alot of money, and depression to euthanise her. There is no cure!!!
Yet honestly? This may seem very heartless of me, but it isn't. I needed that. I needed to be there for her during this. Caring for someone is a huge lesson in compassion. I used to hate her. She was brutal to my father, to me at times.
Alot of healing took place during her illness. Alot of soul searching. Terror for me, watching her go through this, it is hereditery?
My parents and I used this time to rebuild our relationship, we all used this time to forgive her. Before this I hadn't really talked with them for ten years.
She was mean and angry in her illness. She didn't know me, I was the girl in the picture on the wall. Yet I learned how to care for her anyways, how to love her. Patience, compassion.
My daughter was given time with her. Before this she really had no patience for children. She changed. Loved my child. They had some wonderfull times.
We were able to love her completely and care for her. Something we would not have done, if it weren't for that extra time. When she died, I wept. I may not have done that hadn't I been given this time.
I truly believe we go through life and experience things for a reason. She went through her illness for a reason of her own.
To cut off her life would have been humane? Or would it realy have been? To die, with all of us feeling badly for the way she treated us. Or to have the time to reconsider.
I don't want to die. In my Buddhist studies, I have trouble with this. I cannot leave now. My child needs me. I feel panic at the thought of dying. Hopeing and praying, I can stay until she is on her feet and old enough to care for herself. Otherwise, I would be fine.
I hope I do not offend~
Peace, love and light~~