i actually knew you understood, and i had read all the comments before commenting myself...

i think i was just venting a little to you because i knew you were a sympathetic ear....

i'm not even really overly-upset or wracked with guilt (most of the time), just feeling kind of lost and tired at times when i think about the connections and associations that my own fantasies play into, and how i *do* wish i could be different sometimes... just snap my fingers and be cookie-cutter squeaky clean with regards to my sexual appetites....

i hope you didn't think i was accusing you of being short-sighted about this...

just me being a dork and rambling again....

Jules.