I don't see any deletions, just places where LJ's "over 50 comments" script kicked in. You have to click on a specific thread to see all the comments there.

Part of this that is kind of triggery for me, is that when I was younger I had a severe case of misandry. I saw my own male bits as a colony in my own body of rape and oppression and capitalist exploitation, and so I saw sex reassignment as a way to rid my body of all that ugliness and evil. I still haven't quite recovered from all that.