http://azaz-al.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] azaz-al.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] sophiaserpentia 2005-06-24 04:43 am (UTC)

That's funny, you used at least two of those in your last comment to me - so who's dishonest now?
("this is just dishonest." "Perhaps you might cease the hypocrisy")

"Your argument is with someone else so please stop projecting it onto me."
No - you were the one who started this. Notice I didn't respond directly to a single comment you made. Yes, I used two words you like to use in a comment made not to you but to S. But you couldn't keep your mouth shut, could you? No, you had to start something. You could have let it go - after all, I didn't go to your journal and say something to you or respond directly to any of your comments or even mention you by name. You could have said to yourself, "Oh, I will ignore her because she is being crude and unreasonable." But you didn't. How very impressively Christian of you!

What do you hope to accomplish by all of this? Did you think by being snide to me you will change my mind? Do you think I will thank you for being so "principled" by saying I am living a sinful life because I happen to not be straight but out of the GOODNESS OF YOUR HEART you don't think I should be beaten up for it? Excuse me for not being wildly grateful for your splendid gesture of humanity. Oh, you think my family is inherently wrong but you aren't a bad person because you aren't actually beating us up? No, you don't beat people up - but you encourage the attitudes that tell people we are less worthy of being treated with kindness than you are. So yes, my argument is with you. No, I have no tolerance for someone who sneers condescendingly at my family. (Not that I ever claimed to be a PC liberal anyway - you decided that about me for some unknown reason.) My family is all I have. You are trying to convince people we are bad.

"It's all, frankly, in your head."
Didn't I say you'd pretend I was crazy? Of course you would. It's fun to play let's pretend, isn't it? Allows you to avoid all responsibility for the hurt and anger you cause other people by telling them God hates their family structure (Don't forget to tack on some insincere expression like "Love the sinner hate the sin!" when you say that. I'd so hate to see you break protocol.)

You know what I am? I am the end result of what Christianity does to people - the fruit on the tree, so to speak. I am the karma of Christianity, the Awful Fact, the Skeleton in the Closet. I wasn't taught to feel this way by liberal parents - I was taught to feel this way by the behavior of everyday Christians, telling me I'm bad, all the time, everywhere I go - signs, pamphlets, churches, preachers, parents, teachers, friends, prominent Christians in the media, and I go to read my friend's journals and they are there too, talking about how we just need to accept that they think we are sinful and suck it up and take it without complaining, or somehow WE become the bad guys. You can't let there be one place in the world where we can relax and not be bothered with your disapproval of our family, can you? No, you have to watch like a hawk and combat every disapproving word you see, as if you are some hunted species under continual attack instead a citizen of a country where virtually every lawmaker must at least pretend to be of your religion in order to be elected and there is a church on almost every corner of every town. Then you act surprised and disapproving when we become hostile.
You want me to shut up and go away but I exist and hundreds of thousands like me exist. Just because you don't want to hear how much pain and anger your religion causes doesn't mean it's going to go away. Just because you deny that your religion is causing this pain and anger isn't going to make it not be so.

But I'm sure you will stew in your smug denial anyway. Because it's so much more comfortable for you that way.

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